Wednesday, June 2, 2010
On Saturday, I stepped down from any real role on our church's womens ministry leadership team. It was a humbling departure for I had to admit that I hadn't been pulling my fair share for the last few months. I was too busy wrestling with God and not wanting to give up something that I have been so involved in for the last 15 or so years (3-4 at this church). But as I walk away from this with a limp, I know that I have chosen the right thing.
For much to long, I have been wanting to stay comfortable in what I know rather than stepping out into the waters God was calling me to.
My lack of follow through left me listing like a boat without a paddle or motor. Disobedience does that.
My lack of follow through caused confusion not only for me but for those around me. Disobedience does that.
My lack of follow through compounded problems rather solved even one. Disobedience does that.
My willful disobedience didn't bring about anything of value or lasting promise.
So, Saturday I had to ask forgiveness from my God and from those around me. Not easy but necessary.
Necessary for the next step...
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